Moment

I am presently blogging while sitting next to the baggage claim in the Manchester (NH) Airport, waiting for my colleague to complete her check in with her manager.  I've spent the last week in Hanover, New Hampshire, interviewing potential members of the organization I work for, and while New Hampshire is freaking adorable and quaint, and I met some amazing people who are drawn to end educational inequity, I could not be happier to go home.  It has been a long week, and I feel so out of it with my actual day to day to work, which, unfortunately, affects 40 other people whom I support.  I'm also pretty behind on holiday gifts and wanted to get ahead in the evenings, but spent those trying to catch up on other work.

In so many ways, I'm behind.  Which is why today's prompt is great, because it helps me remember to live in the moment and to embrace each experience a new day brings.

Today's Reverb 10 Prompt is:

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. 

Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

I have difficulty selecting just one moment, as I've had an amazing year full of new experiences.  It's cliche, but I don't think I've ever felt more alive, more loved than I did during my marriage ceremony.

But I've really bombarded this blog, and the world, with images and memories from my wedding.  So I've chosen a different moment, a suspended moment that was perhaps the most exhilarating twenty minutes of the year (after the wedding.)

I really love my husband.  I also trust him a lot, and trust is something I've always struggled with.  I've gone through some personal experiences that really affect (present tense, as I'm still growing here) my ability to trust and believe in men in particular.

That being said, every day, I learn to trust my husband even more.  My trust is in him is 100%, but some days it slips to 99.9% and I make stupid comments based on crazy thoughts that clearly display how my personal issues are still not completely resolved.  

The issue of trust can be as deep as the ones I've glossed over above, or as simple and silly as my my "moment" from 2010.

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It was bright, warm, moist and feels like skin that has recently received a lot of sun and is just on the edge of sunburn.  It was cool tile on my happy feet and "snip, snip, snnnnippppp" of borrowed, slightly dull scissors.  Holding my breath, keeping still, freaking out, calming down.  Laughing, giggling, barely containable, overflowing excitement and giddiness.  I felt twelve.  Any moment, my mother would open the door and admonish me for my rash behavior.  I was slowly lightened and light headed with thrill. Moments of "look down," "move right," "look up" coupled with extended silence and the sound of falling feathers. Complete awe of myself and of my husband, a moment full of undiluted trust and lust for adventure that we carry in our relationship.  Afterwards, the cool, refreshing taste of Coca Cola Classic.  Mmmm, perfect...

I said "Will you cut my hair? I can't take it anymore."

He laughed, paused and said "are you serious?"

"Yes."

"Let's do it!"

Cool tile

Giddy excitement

Lighter,

Snip, snip, snnnnipppp!

Trust. Adventure. Nuts?

Refreshing and lip smacking delicious.

Share your moment.